why am i drawn to the men that i am? what am i looking for? a safe harbor? nurturing? protective? loving?

most recently a dog with the most plaintive look, she sits on her man’s lap and he has eyes only for her. he is big, burly, looks like his arms could envelop me. i’d like that. he is a bit strange, mournful/soulful.

he looks at me and holds my gaze, then looks away.

gone.