me thinks that comfort and contentment have become my target in partnering. a man i can be myself with and he likewise. acceptance, embracing similarities and differences. i think part of what makes up attraction is the balance of traits the other person has that we wish we had ourselves, as if sleeping next to a great bridge player one would become one through osmosis. maybe over time we do moderate each other and there is some seepage through the membrane. i envied my husband’s competence, he seemed confident and secure that he could do a great many things well and he did. i was more tentative at that stage in my life, less so now, not completely over it, but better. now i can better gauge what i’m good at and what i’m not. i would like someone to value my strengths and accept my weaknesses, maybe even be supportive of both.

i have been well loved and loved well and i want it again.