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knickers and heididog

03 Monday Oct 2011

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tom and i used to xcross country ski near where we lived in boston, n.y. our dog heidi was a mixed breed hound, she sang and she was black and tan, about 40 pounds. during the day she would hang out in the barn with tom, napping in the sawdust under the lathe. one of their special adventures would be ‘bushwhacking’. that’s xcross country skiing in wild ungroomed areas sometimes frequented by snowmobiles, sometimes not. heidi loved going skiing with tom. as soon as she saw him put on his grey wool knickers she would start hopping up and down like a wind-up toy. she was just soooo excited. she would moan and bark and sing until they went out the door. she just couldn’t contain all that doggiejoy.

if they were gone a long time or the snow was deep or there was run-off to cross tom might have to pick her up and carry her. i have a picture of them in bed after i got up. heidi took my warm spot and put her head on the pillow next to tom. a great dog.

concord grapes

02 Sunday Oct 2011

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in late september or early october, after a frost, the grapes are ready to be picked. the frost maximizes the sugar content. we used to buy a bushel every fall and use the finnish steam juice extractor Mehu-Liisa steam juicers from Finland to reduce the fruit to clear juice. most of the juice went into jelly, clear and beautiful.

driving along lake erie on the way to salmon fishing during the same season the smell of ripe grapes permeates the air, it’s one of my favorite fragrances. i remember telling a co-worker this in the early 80’s and her comment was that she went to college nearby in fredonia and not only was welch’s grape juice located nearby, but so was a ketchup plant and similarly you could smell the ketchup when the tomatoes came in.

classic cars make me cry

02 Sunday Oct 2011

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there used to be a classic car show every summer where my family lived. as i walked among the shiny two-tone hardtops and convertibles i found myself crying, happened every year. the only way i can describe it or understand it is nostalgia for innocence.

on okc i just added a classic car question, i want to be the white thunderbird convertible from American Graffiti.

Rx: apply a warm cat and call me in the morning

29 Thursday Sep 2011

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some nights when my kids were young i was so tired and played out that when it felt like i hit bottom i would just tuck myself in and remember that every day you get another chance to start over and sometimes it’s best just to shut it down for the night. i’ve had 2-3 cats and dogs most of my adult life. at those times gus would fill the ‘v’ of my lap and everything else would melt away. i learned to relax and seep into the sofa when i laid down and gus would snuggle in. the sense of deep relaxation is what i use now to focus on. works for me!

laying back in the weeds

18 Sunday Sep 2011

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trying to be patient, i’m not good at it, at least not yet. by nature i am a pursuer, a hunter. the men i’ve been closest to i have pursued. one tells me i was the ‘love of his life’ the other married me over the other, he said she ‘didn’t know how to fish.’

yes, i do know how to fish. used to be i was a good little fisherperson. once while salmon fishing in lake erie with a fiberglass rod i had a hit. i set the hook and the fish took out line, lots of it, finally snapped the pole near the handle, musta been a fine fish. there are stories my out-laws tell and so do i. my first winter visit to minnesota i bought whilte sorel boots, my white go-go boots with a fur collar. had my blue ESM parka, i was the blue blimp (at 120lbs.) also had down mitts to match from a frostline kit. fished in an ice house for the first time. amazed at how bright it could be under the water while sitting in the dark, glowing from below. fished outside the fish house with a drop line, new to me. had a hit, set the hook and what next, no reel and unused to wrapping the line on the handle i kept tension by running away from the hole, landed the fish. my outlaws referred to that as trolling.

fished in canada on lake nipissing, camp henry. all the family was there. i used a pikey lure and i caught fish hand over fist when no one else did. also a bat in the cabin caught in a fishing net by my bro. t and i went out with my dad, always an adventure. he had a past history of snagging a fishing companions child with a fish hook while casting. he did not put bait on a hook or take fish off. dad needed a lot of taking care of. t and i were willing. we were caught off guard when the weather changed quickly and severely. no chance to get back to camp. t had lots of boat and lake experience. he pulled into a somewhat protected area on a small island and landed us and secured the boat. all in raingear with no cover and all my dad wanted to do in the downpour was light a cigarette. wondering if we were in danger, whether the other boat got back safely and would they be worried about us. trying to light the damned cigarette and keeping it lit. we all shared it under our billed hoods. after maybe an hour the front passed and we fished our way back to camp.

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