well do i? i’d like to find out. get comfortable, maybe in the corner of the sofa next to the arm. then i can see if i can find a position that allows me to curl up in the crook of your arm the way my cats do.

tonight the cats tried a variety of configurations. parallel across my lap and chest, had to place my arms across my chest to provide a platform for one to rest on. they compete to have me. then in the dip of my lap and the valley of my legs. they adapt to the geography without conceding ground.

like settlers in the middle east trying to claim possession of their surroundings, squatters rights. maybe if i find my way to the crook i can claim you in the same way

you said you wished you were more into me. we haven’t even met, how can you possibly know how much or how little? this is the beginning in a 2 dimensional realm. i’m just beginning to get an inkling of what you’re about. what makes you feel/seem awkward/clumsy around women. why they intimidate you so. today someone i have worked with twice before told me how much she appreciated how calm i am, i don’t get rattled easily. in a crisis, i’m someone you might want to keep close to. i’m steady and reasonably skilled at diffusing conflict.

real life is fuller and more complete, meet me, let’s spend a few hours together and see what happens. drop the expectations of what will or won’t. i will if you will. your isolation is self-inflicted, meet me half way, your kitchen or mine?